12:37 PM
wow my last post is on 7th March :) really long ago.. think this is going to be a very random post since I'm just here to blog down everything that I'm bothered with or comes to mind.. Just need a little space for myself.Using my bro's 5 days old computer to blog now cos I really misses him. This is his birthday present frm mummy this year :) I think army didnt just change my bro, it changes mum & me too. Things really hasnt been easy at home. The tension b/w my mum & I has always been there but i know tt cos my brother is away, we are really learning to be more patient with each other.. She is tired after work & I'm stress frm studying & u know, it is really easy to get on each other's nerves... but we are really trying and learning.
***brother dearest, thanks for being such a sweet darling.. For being willing to share all ur things with me, spending money on me, getting me cornflakes though i just roughly mentioned that I have e cravings for it in the morning.
Exams is like 20 days frm now.. I'm feelin nervous.. U know when u feel like u are super unprepared, u really hate it when ppl ask if u're prepared.. and ya.. mum & dear are 2 consistent victims to my sudden outburst of anger. I just hung up e phone with dear a min ago & he just happened to ask me," Have u finished preparing for another subject dear?" .... sorry dear.. know i must have sounded rude just now.. sigh... but u have been nice.. all the while..
It has been a long time since I last bowl, last watch a movie, last played pool, last went to east coast to rollerblade.. Well, even if I've got e chance to do any of these things now, I know I wont be able to enjoy myself at all.. so really no point... Going to sch makes me really freak out cos everybody ard u seems so well prepared & confident.. Of course there are those who are equally unprepared & they keep telling u e failure rate for every subject last yr...!! ARrghhh !!
seems like everybody ard me are busy sending out thousands of resumes alrdy.. ya even before my exams finish.. I really envy them cos these are the ppl who alrdy knows what they want to do and where their interest lie.. Don't know if I will wake up one morning & *ting, an inspiration or smth...
dear, I know there are some things that has really affected our r/s in a great way.. I know that if we try hard enough we will really be able to get pass this together.. Whatever it is, thanks for showing me that u are really sincere in working things out and that this r/s is impt to u. I know I owe u a lot of "thank you" for being so patient with me, for being sensitive to my needs, for letting me whine, for always letting me win in almost every single quarrels.. I cant help but admit that r/s really help us to grow & see beyond our own needs. Thanks dear : )
Daddy, I really misses u. When are u coming back exactly? U keep pushing back the date and I really want to see u before u fly over to the states!! I really wish things were the same as it is 20 yrs ago..